January 2011
i just met ifa yesterday .
& we talked about her ex-boyfriend .. & about y o u ..
& i rly had t fight against my tears .
idk why this is coming up again .
i’m just so confused .
i’m angry & i’m sad ; i hate you .. & i fuckin love you so much ..
i’m wounded & i need some help .. ;
guess this is the first time i’m saying this...
i’m not human anymore
& i miss it .
i miss it more than anything in the world ..
Have you ever had one of those days where you hate the world?
And anything that happens, even dropping your pen, makes you wanna break down and cry .
i’m sorry for not posting the last days ..
i just didn’t feel like posting , idk .
this mood is starting again .. this mood when i hate life & myself .
i’m not interested in anything anymore ..
you rly took my lust for life ; idk what to do anymore .
hope you’re all having a nice day .
love you ..